Monday, June 21, 2010

no to dying in just underwear.

i got home yesterday after what seemed like 3 nonstop days of debauchery. well not really, just 3 nights of drinking. friday was ginXgrapejuice over a religious debate. one round only as the participants got really into the subject lolz. saturday was still ginXgrapejuice, with A's paternal cousins. an interesting bunch, they carried the session all the way to past midnight with five rounds. i had trouble sleeping that night, maybe cos i wanted something i couldn't get then. the next day was a baptismalXbirthday bash, held near here. it was flooding alcohol and longlife food! i thought i wouldn't make it home after what seemed like a case and a half all to myself, but i just fell asleep. i live alone here, so i find it profoundly lonely. haha. somebody was nice enough to load up my internet, so i'm here. but this'll last till sometime around midnight only. i've hoarded up on vids to watch and songs to check out.

these things keep you young, they say. lolz

being home always leaves me reminiscing, childhood, growing up, what the future could be or when will it all be over. stalker guy still hangs around, but i've kinda found something in this other person. it was kinda love at first sight for me, last year, september-ish if i'm not mistaken. though he's shorter than me, he's a cross between zac efron and jake vargas (in my eyes, lolz). it was this february when he pulled me away from a drinking crowd and said he was okay to have a relationship with me, as long as we keep it from his uncle, who's his guardian. he stays with me in a house i got in the same area his uncle stays with his family. he's also younger, but i've no problems with that. i can tell, kinda, that he's really straight and this is just a phase for him, he'll up and make girls cry and have kids, and i'll be alone like always. maybe he'll make life a little more bittersweet for me by asking to be his kid's godparent, crushing my plan of never having to see him again, lolz. but for now, he means a lot, and i wish i could do more for him.

i'll be here home alone for a couple of days, sleeping, cleaning, chilling. if i die it'll probably be a while before i'm found, as nobody comes here. i just hope i don't die wearing just undies, haha! =D

that half-sphere is the mid-afternoon moon...


i take a lot of pictures and i always bring a camera with me.

nobody loves deviled ham.

except me, i guess. i haven't met anyone who likes deviled ham like i do, and most people don't even know it existed. and a lot seem to be put off by the name. i came across a blog entry sometime back where this person tells about seeing deviled ham at the grocery, and being appalled that somebody had the guts to use the devil as a flavor, and that he was surprised that the church had allowed such a thing to be made. i found it so funny i actually sent a message to the blog author and thanked him for the entertainment. he didn't get my point, though.


deviled ham is ham that is deviled, or spiced so hard that the analogy of it's hotness being devilish was used to name the product. same as corned beef, which does not involve corn as in the yellow ones that come in ears, but rather 'corns' as in big blocks of salt, in the curing process. and spam is actually short for spiced ham.




Thursday, June 17, 2010

if ever i meet...


...markki stroem.



i'll thank him for singing my song
during his grand final performance for PGT.
you're the best!

life is a mystery...


a day of kpop and ppop...

so, yesterday i went out after being holed up for almost a week. i wasn't able to get a job last summer, so i have no tuition money to go back to school.

b2st, a kpop group, is in town for a concert this friday, and my sister reminded me a couple of weeks back how i pledged to see them if they ever set foot on philippine shores. lolz.

they had 2 meet & greets, at megamall (last wed) and at sm north (yesterday). see, when i found out about this, i'd saved money to get their album; but i'd been so indecisive that i didn't go to megamall. i slept through it, but miraculously when i woke up, i was all set to see them at sm north. hee hee.

b2st debuted last september, amidst a number of other kpop group debuts. they're kind of a pseudo supergroup, u see. 3 members, gi-kwang, doo-joon, and jun-hyung, have all been featured on previously released music; 2 members, hyun-seung and dong-woon, were almost part of 2 other popular kpop groups; and yo-seob, has been seen dancing for labelmates before debuting with b2st.

btw, b2st is read as beast, as '2' in korean is read as 'ee'. my last semester at school had a soundtrack featuring their music, especially 'bad girl', 'oasis' and '아직은 (yet)'. seeing them was gon be a life moment.

thursday morning came, made breakfast of fried sisig rice and iced mocha, and set off for the venue. i arrived around 2pm, since i had a couple of pictures printed for autograph purposes; there were a good number of fans there already. i paid for the cd, and found out i was number 438. the event was at 6pm, it was just 2pm, and i was already past 400?!?! well. i had a happy breakfast.

meet & greet b2st (beast)!

all sorts of fans were there. i wasn't too happy with some, but what the hell.

then, dreadful news. apparently the local organizers were heartless enough to invite you to meet & greet b2st, but impose house rules including: no pictures up close (you may take pics at certain intervals, from afar. thank your camera maker for good zoom quality), you may not give them letters or gifts (drop them off in the big box up front, where what you put much effort into could end up ruined, or i wonder, if they'll ever see those. i mean, the moment where they see you give them something is sooo busted. major fail), you can only have the cd inlay signed, nothing else (well, there goes the pics i had printed, and to those who prepared special posters? too bad. just too bad). aparently, the group can only be there for an hour. i wonder what else they'd be doing that they can only give the fans who support them so much just one hour? that was just sad.

they arrived, fans went wild, the session started. and new rules were introduced. do not talk to them. do not touch them. heartbreak at its finest! mind you, there are vips occupying a good area in front of the stage, so the closest normal fans could be would be around 5-6 meters away, until you get up on stage. when i finally set foot on stage, there were at least 6 people who herded fans, shoving them, taking things they suspected you'd hand over to the members. 495php for just about 2 minutes on the stage where they'd almost literally push you off to get you out of the way. i'm quite sure some of what i paid for the cd would eventually wind up in these guys pockets, and this is how they show their gratitude.

about 1/3 of the people around are actually organizers that kept herding fans...

i was happy to see them, but it wasn't the best experience at all.

however, God is always good, and here are my highlights for the event. i had 2 banners i made, 'b2st is cool' and 'jjajangmyun is delicious'. of course i wrote them in korean, and it was some sort of joke, cos 'cool' and 'delicious' in korean sound alike. when the cameraman shot the audience, i saw myself in the videoscreen upfront, and the shot cut into one of b2st's videos. so i was wearing cool shades, and the scene cut to one of the members also wearing cool shades! memorable!

top: b2st is cool (b2st meoshissso)
bottom: jjajangmyun in delicious (jjajangmyun mashisso)

when the guys got on stage, yoseob read my banners and got the joke, and told the other members to check it out. yey! jun hyung helped the disabled lady get off stage after signing her cd. nice one! the event photog asked to take my pic twice! thanks to my banners! yeyeyey! and i'm 100% sure yoseob waved at me at one point while i was in line. he's a good guy. =)

so i left still having that hollow feeling. i felt betrayed by whoever came up with those rules and whoever decided that the fans deserve the least time from b2st.

afterwards, i found myself all the way in cubao with local ppop group xlr8. it was such a pleasant surprise, we'd met before, and i was happy to see they remembered me. we had pics taken, though 2 members weren't there. short chit chat, where'd they'd perform next, how my wrist support looks like some fight aid, my gold chucks (tnx mium-jiut, lolz), the never ending question that if i was in a band (almost hehe), and i successfully identified which twin was which. mr. doshite was quiet, but he's nice. lightning kid was thoughtful too!

XLR8 - 6/8

the day ended most nicely with haem listening to my day. i got orders for my small business, and got a ride home from cavs jersey 23.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

will we ever really know what happened...





... to you, ambrose?


although i'd really like to,
if it means more to you that nobody does,
then i'd rather not know.
rest in peace, i'll always remember.



if ever i meet...





...zac efron,



i'll ask him to direct my movie, with me in the lead role. as long as i don't sing.

i've read a lot of his interviews, and i like the way he thinks.